Mornings to everyone. today is a 8th day without her in my life. The purpose of writing this blog. is just to show my feelings and share all my feelings with everyone. especially with my beloved. baby. i just wanna let my feelings out.Baby, do u know how much i love you? We've been together for 577days and tomorrow is our anniversary. i know why u need time to think. and i can understand everything u done till this far. i really can feel the love from you. and i'm being useless and not giving u any happiness and i promise u i changed. But at last i didn't change. I know its hard to change. But these whole week. i realize so many things. all the pain and suffers i get. is just another way round. that i treated u bad before. i admitted. But i'm really trying hard and i'm changing. i really just need a last chance from you. to let me love u again. and appreciate you.
I know girls minded are sensitive. even a small things can ruin up everything. thats why from today onwards. i will fulfill all my promises, i will put all my effort and heart in everything i do. just to win back your heart. Yes i admitted, its hard for u to forgive me. But i just hoping for a last chance and only one chance. Not to hurt u. but to cherish you.
Lately, i chat with many friends. asking about opinions, and advice. But at last i make all my own decision. This whole week. day and night, i can't have even one good night sleep. every night. i swear and im dreaming about u. EVERY NIGHT. But i know i have to be strong, to regain your confidence back on me. i know its hard. But i'll give it the best of my best. i won't give up on this relationship, it's not the matter of how long we've been together, it's the matter of how we treat each other and love each other right? And i also admitted i'm not a best boyfriend to you before. But i just need one more chance to prove everything to you.il be the best of the best.
i know your friends don't likes me. cause i'm being bad to you. But i promise. il do everything i can to make u happy and make people around u happy for u too. i'll give u freedom u wants, interest, things that u wanted to do, everything. and i will support u no matter what. i really hopes i can touched ur heart. feel ur heart. and care about u.
-I WILL CONSOLE YOU WHEN YOU'RE SAD
-I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU. NO MATTER ANYTHING HAPPEN.
-I WILL CHERISH YOU AND APPRECIATE YOU THAT I NEVER REALLY ALWAYS DONE
-I WILL MAKE U THE HAPPIEST GIRL U EVER FEEL
-I WILL ALWAYS THINK OF YOU AS MY FIRST PRIORITY. CAUSE U'RE MY BELOVED WHENEVER U NEED ME, EVENTHOUGH WHAT I'M DOING. I'LL PUT AWAY ANYTHING. JUST TO COME AND FIND YOU
-I WILL ALWAYS FULFILL MY PROMISE. WITHOUT ANY REGRETS.
-I WILL LOVE YOU FOR ALL MY LIFE
-I WILL PAMPER U LIKE A BABY WHENEVER U'RE HAPPY AND SAD.
-I WILL ALWAYS MESSAGE YOU ALL THE TIME NO MATTER WHAT I'M DOING
-I QUITTED POOL FOR YOU, NO REGRETS
-I WILL ALWAYS GIVE U SUPRISES AND GIFTS TO MAKE U HAPPY
-I WILL GIVE U SUPRISES FOR EVERY CELEBRATION. PROMISED wont break promise.
-I WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE OF YOU. AND ALWAYS STAND ON UR SIDE
-I WILL ALWAYS THINK FROM UR POSITION. I WILL AND I ALWAYS DO NOW.
-I WUN BE SO SENSTIVE. SO JEALOUSY AND I WILL LISTEN AND DO EVERYTHING U WANT ME TO DO.
-I WILL ALWAYS LISTEN TO YOUR COMPLAINS. I WILL JUST SIT AND LISTEN. SHARING IS CARING.
-I WONT ARGUE WITH U ANYMORE. NO MATTER WHOSE FAULT. I'LL ALWAYS TOLERATE U.
-I WILL BE PATIENCE. EVERYTHING. NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS. IL STAY CALM AND PATIENCE
-I WILL REALLY CHANGE MY TEMPERED. AND I CHANGED. I KNOW ITS NOT EASY. BUT THESE WHOLE WEEK I REALLY REALISE. I REALLY CAN CHANGE.
I MISS U DAY AND NIGHT
WISH TO HUG U EVERY DAY.
WISH TO KISSES U GOODNIGHT.
MISSING U EVERY TIME I WAKES.
EVENTHOUGH U'RE NOT BY MY SIDE
I ALWAYS THINKS OF YOU
EVEN DREAM YOU EVERY NIGHT
I CANT SLEEP.
I CANT EAT.
I CRIED
IM DEPRESS
I DAY DREAM
ALL DAY I JUST CANT STOP THINKING OF YOU
I SUFFER
NOT TO TORTURE MYSELF.
AND NOT TRYING TO GET SYMPATHY FROM ANYONE
JUST BECAUSE I LOVE U SO MUCH.
IM TRYING TO BE STRONG.
TO REGAIN CONFIDENCE FROM YOU.
TO WIN BACK YOUR HEART.
TO MAKE U FEEL SECURE WITH ME.
I JUST LOVE YOU THAT I CANT DESCRIBE WITH ANY WORDS.
MY FEELING FOR U JUST CANT DESCRIBE HOW DEEP I'VE FALL FOR U. I JUST CANT DESCRIBE.
I JUST CANT GO ON WITH MY LIFE WITHOUT U.
I'M NOT DEPENDING.
BUT I JUST NEED YOU. AND I WANT TO U BE IN MY LIFE AND BE MY HAPPIEST LIFETIME WIFE. I KNOW I DONT DESERVE A CHANCE YET. BUT I'LL WAIT TILL THE DAY U ACCEPT ME BACK.
I really wish how good if i can ever call u my baby again. my beloved. every single name that i called u before.
How i wish u're always be there to care for me.
How i wish i can spend everyday with you. how i wish i can cry with you when i'm sad.
How i wish the way u appreciate me and the way u concern me
How i wish we can hug each other and kisses all night
How i wish u can cook and i can cook for u again
How i wish u can webcam with me again
How i wish u can come ipoh with me again
How i wish u can cherish me and pamper me again
How i wish i can take pictures of you now
How i wish i can see you everyday
How i wish things wont happen.
How i wish i can make u smile and laugh everyday again.
How i wish i can make u sweet.
How i wish to wakes u up and make u a breakfast now
How i wish u will call me now and say I LOVE U.
How i wish u come back to me now. No matter how many wishes i made. i hope all will come true. But i have to take prove it to u and my determination. then only this way. i only have a chance to make u have confidence on me again.
I love you so much, i just wish u can come back to me. i just wanna correct my mistakes. and i will never do it again. il treat this as my last chance to this relationship. i'm saying this cause i dun wan to do any things that i hurt u and make u sad again. i want to make u happy everyday. cause this is what love meant to be. I love u so deeply until i can't even describe it anymore. Hope that u can forgive me one day. and i can win back ur heart. my baby bell. my soh chu. bao bei. my piggydear. :)
Loves from lexy
我爱你一辈子
10.00am Saturday 8/5/2010
